there are so many things i wanna say
and its all about him...

i bumped into him today on my way home on bus.
really a pure coincidence.
and we have achieved to be perfect strangers.
my heartbeat was 3 times faster.
i wonder to myself, why?
fear or affection?
i realised is both..

god, are you really trying to make fun of me?
why are you creating so much coincidence these days?
are all these curse or fate?
i really dono.
but as much as i want all these coincidences, i wish i have none of it.

i tried really hard to ignore him.
from the bottom of my heart and mind.
obviously i din succeed. but neither did i fail.
i pray so hard that there is a day that he will not appear in my mind at all.
that day has yet to come even after 340+ days.
tears of missing you were gone.
but tears still existed bcos i hate myself for not being able to forget you.

why?
tell me why you choose to do somethings only now, but not right from the beginning?

so many questions i have.
but i know very clearly there are no answers at all.

" Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage"
Lao-Tzu.
a bookmark that my gp tutor gave me.

perhaps god is not making fun of me.
but god is trying to make me a stronger girl...