who truly understands how i feel?
who knows how scared i m?
who knows what i am thinking about?
who know how serious it is now?

i cried.
i m scared.

went to doc again.
i did not do any blood test YET.
doc said it is due to germs
and is either young diabetes or HIV.
wth la, only diabetes is possible.
please god, i want nothing now but a good health.

my leg din turn for the better.
it has turned into smth terrible.
i got to get it remove.
is too painful to get it done in the clinic, hosp is the key.
i got the letter to go to the hosp
but i dono what to do now.

who can guide me the way?
who can lend me a shoulder to cry on?
who can be there for me?
how much i wish he is still mine.
but this will never happen.