these few days have been is disastrous.

so many things have happened

sadness more than joys.

not only to me

but my friends too..



22 Aug 2007..

a date to be remembered..

sad things shall not be mentioned

for all of you should noe it by now.

cos "huai shi chuan qian li"



25 Aug 2007..

i would definitely love to extend my thanks to all my frens

all those who turned up for the concert.

all those who give their support in a way or another.

special thanks to those who helped alot

Jovan

hafiz

Hongwei

weikee

zihao

xianjun

mervin

kokwei

jinghan

qiuming

lenny

jialiang

zhe

kengyang

ping

fifi

i think tts all ba..

sorry if i miss out any..

but all ur help are greatly appreciated.



don't you think having friends are just so great..

they will be there whenever you need them.

they listen to ur joys, sadness, grudges and many more.

thanks frens.


now i only wish that i can be truly happy
but of cos..
i cant..
i cant help but cry
my mum, my dad and my sis
they touched my heart.
my mum talked and consoled me
she made me feel guilty for not being a good daughter
i think i sucks at being a good sister, daughter, fren and galfren

now i enjoy freedom tt i nvr used to have
my mum let me do whatever things i want
she let me cry
she let me yell
she let me stay out
she just let me do everything.
thanks mum.

but my mum told me this..
she said she nvr blame me for all i did
she don think i deserve what is happening now
she said she will give her blessing if me n him were ever back again
she told me not to hide and supressed my sadness
she asked me to cry all i want
thanks mum..
nth can be able to expressed my thanks to you..

as confused and sad as i m
my grandma is even more sad than me
she still misses my grandpa
she hope that he is still around
she yearn for the love
she waits endlessly for e phone to ring
she just want somebody to talk to her.
but me..
i made her worry.
on top of all her worries
she had to worry about me
i m sorry grandma
i let my grandpa down too..

don worry..
crying is good
if u think in a positive way lahs
do ignore me if i start bla bla..

thats all for this low, depressed entry
i love my family
my frens
and...

going out with lenny later
hope the air at esplanade will make me better
i hate sleeping now
cos dream to me is nightmare.
after every dream..
there is only tears,pain,hurt in me..

take care.