wahh
changing blog url seems to be my favourite
and as usual
i wont delete nor change for no reasons de
is becos i m sadd
or i face smth t really breaks my heart
tt blog shld not be available anymore
becos teachers and cousins noe it
is my life
i don wan ppl to noe
especially wad i really feel

actually
bloggin is smth dangerous to do
ur secret may jus be exposed.
well
in anyway..
tis time round
i gonna make tis private
seriously lahs

i wanna type out my feelings
give me a chance kae
i am very very sadd now
is not sadd bahs
is tt i can feel the great pain in my heart
i feel it
i cant express it

i call my bud
but
nth come out of my mouth

i realised tt i m avoidin the prob
i m ACTING okay in front of every single one of them
i cant believe tt i m okay in front of them
do u noe tt deep inside i feel terrible

tis matter is rather serious bahs
i m very very scared
i scared tt i may hate her
when i first found out
i was okay de lehs
no anger
no hatred
no sense of bein betrayed
now still don have
cos i m stopping it bahs

i thought i m okay de
really
but i woke up with the pain in my heart
i told myself is nth de
move on

i went to sch
i saw her
the feelin was terrible
but she is my best fren
i told her i m alright de
so i must show tt too right

wads worst
i saw him
i donno
the whole thing is painful lahs

especially seeing him keep lookin at her
tt is smth really really terrible..
well
i m jus not fated to be in love

see lahs
tt is nobody i can tell
nobody tt i can show
no place i can fa xie
i don wanna keep it in me..
but..it jus sucks lahs
even my sis wana read tis blog
wat the..
haiss